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I am a yo-yo. I mean, seriously, I am a yo-yo… in my Scripture Readings. I am ashamed to say that thus far, without fail, after I have had a good week of doing my Scripture Reading, I am sure to have a bad week of not doing it. I am ashamed of this fact.

But I am getting ahead of myself. So to better understand today’s story, I am going to go back to last Sunday…

Last Sunday I was set apart in two different callings. First I was set apart as a Visiting Teacher Coordinator. The Bishop’s 1st Counselor did the setting apart, and in his prayer, he prayed for my help in find a job. Then after Relief Society, I realized that I was never set apart in my initial calling. As a new member of the church, I hadn’t realized that you needed to be set apart for each calling. So I trekked down to the Bishop’s Office and I waited to see him. I had a few questions to ask him about the calling and after we were finished talking, I told him that I had realized that I had never been set apart for this calling. He apologized and then set me apart, including in the prayer, a blessing for me to find a job.

I felt so happy and joyful. Then on Monday morning, I received a phone call telling me that I had been hired! This really strengthened my testimony about the power of the Priesthood. I mean, the priesthood and prayed specifically for me to find a job, and then first thing the next morning it happened. Heavenly Father is so kind and he has blessed me so much.

And this is where we get into me being a yo-yo. With my new job, I was waking up at 5:30 am so I could get to work on time. Because of this, I did not want to wake up earlier than that to do my devotions… I do love my sleep. I told myself that I would do them when I got home from work. But when I got home, I was so exhausted that I could not keep my eyes open. I told myself that it was just one day and I would make it up the next. But the same thing happened the next day and then the day after that. Next thing I knew, it was Friday and I hadn’t done my devotions once that week.

This is where Heavenly Father intervened and gave me a “scolding”. This week I was undergoing training to take over for an accountant as a bookkeeper.  I knew that starting this up coming Monday, my hours would be cut back to 20 a week. I had thought that my hours would be 8:30 – 12:30. But on Friday, the boss came in and said that she had decided that she would rather I worked 1-5 pm.

And this is how Heavenly Father made sure that I have the time to do my Scripture Reading in the mornings before work. Plus, Heavenly Father knows how much I like sleep, and so now I will not have to wake up at 5:30 am! Heavenly Father really is a kind, loving Father. He answers the prayers we do not even think to pray and makes sure that we cannot make excuses that we just want to make as for why we cannot do what we should be doing. He calls us out on our excuses because He loves us and wants us to be the best that we can be!

Well, it has been a long time since I posted an update, and for that, I am sorry!

Lately, Church things have been going so well. I have TWO callings. SAY WHAT?!? I went in to talk to the Bishop today about my first calling and after clearing some things up for me, he said that the Relief Society President really felt that I should be called to be a Visiting Teacher coordinator. My first calling is that of putting together a newsletter for all the missionaries in our Stake and printing it out and sending it to the missionaries. He even called me an assistant for it. I created a Google document for the newsletter and split up the wards between us so that whenever one of us gets a message, we can add it. It makes it so much easier to collaborate.

(Yes, I would send letters to the missionaries on the moon, as well. LOL)

I have been to the temple three times, and I love it. I went to the temple last on Thursday, and I was able to do baptisms for 10 people and confirmations for 10 people. I love doing temple work. Sometimes I like to imagine their happiness the moment they realize that someone has been baptized on behalf of them so that they can be saved. It makes me happy and feel like I am truly doing something good. Some other times, I think about what it would be like to be in Spirit Prison just waiting for someone to do your work for you. I am so glad that I discovered and accepted the truth while still on earth.

(This is the San Diego Temple, but I think it is my favorite temple… I go to the Fresno Temple, though)

This last week, I actually read my Scriptures every day and I journaled as well. Journaling is not something that comes easy for me. I don’t like putting my thoughts and feelings on paper because it makes me feel vulnerable. Like anyone can pick up my journal and invade my private feelings. I am the oldest of four girls, and we are all incredibly nosey. If you leave something open (email or facebook) you can guarantee that someone else will read your emails. However, I realized, so what if they read my journal on about things going on in my life about the church? Maybe if they do read it and see my testimony and how happy I am in the church, they will want to join too. I promised my parents that I would not talk to my sisters about the Church and try to convert them, but if they stumble upon it on their own, I didn’t really lie, right?!?

I am still struggling with some things, though. I am still unemployed and having trouble even landing an interview. I don’t even know where to look for jobs, anymore, because it seems all the website are just spam. I applied for several and I got back a naked picture. And another place spam called me three times. And then there are just the sketchy things where you are pretty sure it is fraud. It is so confusing/annoying. Some people seem to just stumble upon jobs, and then I can’t get a break. Okay, end of pity party. I am trusting in Heavenly Father that something will come along. I will just continue to try to find and apply for jobs. I had to ask my aunt to loan me money a week ago so that I could pay my bills. It was really embaressing to do, but I had bills to pay and I had to do it. But I know that this too shall pass!

I have noticed how much happier I am now that I am a member of the Church. Sure, there are things that make me unhappy, and at times I struggle from depression. It hurts when my family pushes me out of many of the aspects of their lives, though I am sure they don’t do it intentionally. But on the other hand, I have had an addiction (I am not going to say which of the many addictions there are out there to have) and I am not going to go into why I suffer from this particular addiction, but since doing my Scripture reading this week, I have not felt the draw the says that I will die if I don’t give in. I have felt temptation, but I have been able to push it away and not give in. I know that it is because of the strength the Lord has given me because of my obedience to the Lord. I have felt so blessed by Heavenly father and I love Him so much!

Anyway, I hope that you all have a great week! I hope to update sooner than this last time!

11 Hours

In eleven hours I will be baptized into the church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I am so excited. And then in 35 hours, I will have the gift of the Holy Ghost with me always as my constant companion. I cannot believe it. I have so much to do before 1030 tomorrow.

My todo list:
*finish anti-Mormon book from my parents
*write my parents and sisters letting them know that I am going to be baptized into the Church and that I did read the book and that I have a testimony about the truth of this Church and the Book of Mormon
*Make sure my clothes are unwrinkled and that I have a change of underclothing for after baptism
*watch a soccer game at 630 (what? I am not that obsessed)
*wake up my aunt to make sure she gets here in time
*take a shower

I am not sure what else but I am sure there is more. I can do it.

Anyway, yay for baptism!

Meeting the Missionaries


So today I went to a baptism and then I had my first meeting with the missionaries. I gave them my testimony and they were so excited. They said that I might be able to get baptized by next Sunday. That is so soon, I am so excited.

I remember five months ago when I was going to meet with the sister missionaries and they were talking about getting baptized in a month and I was astounded. It just seemed way too fast! But today, I just couldn’t wait to get baptized. No date they could give me would be soon enough. They asked if I had any questions at the end (before we talked about baptism) and I was like “yeah, one, when can I get baptized.” I mean, seriously, that is my one desire at this moment. Get baptized, receive the Holy Ghost, and follow Him.

However, tonight I have to tell my grandfather. They said they would pray for me tonight and that I could call if I needed anything. They even mentioned the frightening chance about how the church would be there for me if I were to be kicked out of the house. I am praying most fervently that it does not come to that. I think that my grandfather is too loving and caring to kick me out.  In an hour we are going to Hometown Buffet, and I am resolved to tell him there.

And about my nose piercing… I have taken it out. I just now have to put it somewhere, but it is out and I am not going to put it back in, no matter how much I want to. I know that Heavenly Father will bless me for my sacrifices and my desire to follow him, even when I do not like it.

I will update more after I have talked to my grandfather. Thank you for reading this and for supporting me through prayer and thoughts!

Well, I have finally made contact with the missionaries.

It started out with the mission president in North Carolina calling me and asking if I had heard from the missionaries yet. I told him that I had not heard from them, but I was waiting. He then told me that he would again call the mission office here in California and try to get the number of the missionaries and call them and talk to them about me. Well, apparently he had been able to get in contact with them because an hour or two afterwards, I got a phone call from the missionaries at the family ward. They had talked directly to the mission president in North Carolina. He asked if I was in my twenties and then suggested that I attend the YSA ward. So I said I would and asked for the missionary information for the missionaries at the ward there.

So I called them. It was about a five minute phone conversation. I found out that I am to have Elders, which, when I am being totally honest, is kind of disappointing to me. I really loved the Sister Missionaries. In part, I felt like I was able to identify with them easier. I also felt like it was easier to talk to them because they were girls, just like me.

Now I know if is unreasonable to expect Sisters again. Afterall, more men are sent out then women… but I held on to the hope. Oh well. I will make the most out of it. They seemed nice on the phone and I can’t wait to meet them. I can’t wait to get baptized.

Tomorrow I am to go to a baptism at the church at 11 am. It will be nice to see what happens at a LDS baptism before I get baptized. After all, I have seen baptisms in a font, baptisms in the ocean, and baptisms in a river, but all of them have been protestant.

Anyway, I hope that you all are doing well. I wake up in six hours (to watch a soccer game). I must sleep now!

Daily Devotions

Okay, so just a quick update on the whole missionary thing… 25 hours and still waiting for a call. I even slept with the volume turned on on my phone so that if I got a call from them while still sleeping, I could answer it. I sent in a missionary request (on mormon.org) but I did not give out the house number, only the street name because I cannot have the missionaries at my house. I wish I could, but out of respect for my grandfather’s beliefs, I cannot. I am still anxiously waiting their call.

I want to quickly thank everyone who stopped by my blog yesterday. I appreciate all of your support and it strengthens me, and my resolve, to know that there are people out there who support me and are praying for me, even if I do not know them personally. We are all children of God and so we should all be there for each other. So if you ever need prayer for anything, just let me know and I would be honored to lift you up to Heavenly Father in prayer.

Anyway, today in my daily devotions, I read Jacob 1-4 when I came across Jacob 4:5. It talks about how Abraham being willing to give up Isaac is symbolic of God giving up His only begotten soon as atonement for our sins.  Now I have been a Christan my whole life and I have heard the story of Abraham and Isaac so many times I cannot count, but for some reason I never made that connection. It seems so obvious now, but it just never connected before. It is funny that it took the Book of Mormon spelling it out to me to make me see it.

To me, this is just evidence of the truth of the Book of Mormon. People can call it lies and say that Joseph Smith made it up, but I cannot believe that so much goodness and positive thoughts could come out of it if it was all lies. There is that verse in Matthew that talks about good fruit coming from good trees and bad fruit coming from bad trees and that good fruit cannot come from a bad tree and bad fruit cannot come from good tree. This is how I view the Book of Mormon and the LDS Church.

Anyone have any thoughts on this?

Today I was reading a bit from that book my parents gave me and it had this passage in it, referring to the first vision Joseph Smith received:

If Joseph Smith had truly believed  in the authority of the Bible and had really studied it, he could have determined for himself that the various Christian denominations were not “all corrupt” with abominable creeds, but held to similar biblical teachings on key doctrines – and that his initial vision was, therefore, a false one.

What are your thoughts on this? Anything you can think of to refute this? I think that despite what this author says, there are many key doctrines that they disagreed on. Some believed baptism was necessary for salvation, some believed that it was not. Some believed that once saved always saved, others believed you could leave your salvation. Then there is the Catholic church which believed in a great many things that the protestant church did not believe in. I mean, if you think that you have received a vision and in the vision you have been told that the other churches are corrupt and that they disagree on many doctrines, why should you push away God’s voice and think that it is false. I mean, what if Isaiah had thought that when God spoke to him, it was all made up in his head and a false doctrine? What if none of the prophets had believed the prophecies they had received about the coming of a Savior and a Redeemer?

Anyway, what are your thoughts on this? Do you have anything to add?

Back on the Right Track

So I am finally in California. That is a good thing!

So on Tuesday, I was at the library and I saw two sister missionaries. I didn’t go up t talk to them because I knew it was their day off (they were using the computers and checking their email). But as I saw them, I was reminded that the sister missionary I keep in contact with in North Carolina had told me that I needed to contact the mission president in North Carolina when I got to California and that he would contact the mission president here in California. So I called the mission president in North Carolina right away. I was disappointed to get his voice mail, but I left a message for him to call me back. I waited two days but I still did not hear back from him.

Then today I was looking at the blog updates on my google reader and I saw an update from one of the “Mormon Mommy” blogs I follow (C. Jane). Anyway, her post was about her nephew who was going to the MTC today. It talked a lot about how even though it was a hard thing to send your child off and not hear from them except for four phone calls and a weekly email for two years, that it was only two years and it was two years of great growth and learning as a family. I was reminded that I needed to call the mission president so that I could meet with the missionaries and get baptized. So I called the mission president and he picked up this time. We had a ten minute conversation about what I was doing with my life and was I ready to be baptized and such. Anyway, I gave him my phone number and address and everything and he said he would contact the mission president and that I should be in contact with some missionaries shortly.

Now I have to admit that that was an hour and a half ago and I have been waiting anxiously for the phone to ring ever since. I mean, I know that is ridiculous because when I was meeting with the sister missionaries, We would be meeting for like an hour to two hours and the would never answer their phone. I know that I have to be patient, but man, I just want to get this ball rolling. Since the phone call with the mission president, I have done my devotions (2 Nephi 28-33) and written this post and written an email to a Morman Women yahoogroup that I subscribe to. I am going crazy. I mean, I might not even hear from the missionaries today. But I want to know if it is going to be sisters or elders. How long till I get baptized. Should I go to the YSA ward or the assigned family ward. I want to be back on the right track. I want to be progressing onward toward baptism and membership and a year after that, being able to go to the temple. I feel like I want it all (patience is not my virtue).

Okay, I am going to pray and try to calm myself down and maybe apply to a couple of jobs. I will try to be patient. Maybe I will go back to the library and pick up the books they have on hold for me there.

Oh, and as soon as I get there phone call I have made the decision that the nose piercing has to come out. This is a big step for me that I don’t want to take. It has been a part of me since my best friend and I did it as a bonding experience when I was twenty. I love the way it looks and it makes me feel like my nose isn’t so big (vain much?) But I know that it is a requirement and that I am stretching it a bit to not have it taken out now. But *insert whinny kid* I don’t want to!

Okay, enough of that. Obviously I did not pay enough attention to my devos today!

Will update when I hear from the missionaries.